our first field day!

Josh and I remember our childhood field days so well, and to think that the same type of event is currently forming the same life-long memories in our son is just kinda fun! We, naturally, dropped everything to go watch.

even though Josh had a LOT of work to do, this is where he was:

such a sweet Daddy-O.

and the girls were pretty um, uncomfortable with the chilly weather.

but, luckily, it warmed up quickly and it was a great day (not to mention that the 1/2 price schoolastic book fair sale was simultaneously happening and I got to treat everyone to some seriously awesome summer reading fun!)

Anywho, this dude, I am just completely head over heals for him.

so, I’ll take this moment to apologize for all the pictures I’m going to post in this blog entry. Sorry. I just can’t pick favorites; this boy is just too cute for me.


… notice the shoe…

I’m sorry, I just feel like I could eat him up.

so, the balloon-popping event was definitely, without a doubt, the highlight of my day:

… I’m just glad Jude went over to help…

… and Ava…

so, eventually the balloon was popped, although I won’t even pretend like some help wasn’t given from his teacher. Meanwhile, this little onlooker was pretty cute:

and this gal… wow, I like her:

ok, back to the Field Day Boy:


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just a couple of dance pics…

I’m editing photos tonight and I just had to stop and post these amazing pictures of Ava and Audrey. They tagged along with me for my photo shoot last night, since it was at their dance studio, on their class night. They got in front of the camera a couple of times, and I can’t help but post a few of these!


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swimming.

Last week we went swimming for the first time this season. Jude’s not a huge fan, nor is he a fan of his snazzy little floatation suit:

But, Elijah jumped right in and started swimming under water as if we’d never had a winter in between our summers.

The girls have taken a little more warming up (i.e. adding Jude’s baby raft to their arsenals of floating equipment), but now that’s we’ve been swimming 3 times, they are officially old pros.


Hello, summer. It’s just so good to have you back around.

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“i give up!”… (or possible alternative title: “i’m a failure!”

During some indistinguishable moment last week– I don’t quite know if it resulted from a conscious resolution or a passive acceptance of defeat– I gave up. Sounds depressing, and I guess it is, if you’re in to success and personal achievement and dreams and that kind of stuff.

I, however,  gave up on that “kind of stuff.”

I gave up on being the savior who eradicates Failure to Thrive, low weight gain, and global delays.

I gave up the illusion of  control over my own body. My iron pills, my vitamin B and D supplements, my thyroid supplements, none of them are a match for pure weariness.

I gave up my last shred of personal accomplishment when I turned off my alarm clock and sent Josh to un-program the coffee pot on the morning I should have been running the streets of downtown Nashville, but instead had my head over a trash can.

I gave up on having a lovely house, one that’s big enough for this crazy family, or at the very least, one that’s clean. I even gave up on a clean car.

I gave up. On lots and lots of things. Most especially on wishing… Wishing Jude would miraculously be unburdened by the curses of his previous life. Wishing Elijah wasn’t facing a possible Asperger’s diagnosis later in the month. Wishing Josh wasn’t consumed by graduate studies, or at least that I was independent enough to not need him so much. Wishing that my body wouldn’t betray me, that my house would stay clean, that my kids would, in the depths of their souls, love to do what is right. Wishing, wishing, wishing, wishing.

Wishing is so exhausting.

…So, instead, I’m giving up.

But don’t worry, I’ve found something out, quite by accident. When I stopped fighting, I wasn’t fighting anymore…  instead, unexpectedly, I was resting. Being a “Failure” means having relief. Giving myself permission to quit trying to fix everyone and everything, Accepting that I’m not limitless in my abilities and power, that I can’t– and don’t have to– control events and orchestrate perfection.

That I’m not God.

And that, y’all, is good. Well, it’s at least goodish. It’s not a magical fix; life isn’t “easy” all of a sudden, and I’m still tired. But that’s ok with me.

The Lovely Mrs. Charles E Cowman (you may have heard of her, she wrote Streams in the Desert) wrote , “What do you do when you are about to faint physically? You cannot do anything. You cease from your own doings. In your faintness, you fall upon the shoulder of some strong loved one… when we are tempted to faint under affliction, God’s message to us is not, ‘Be strong and of good courage,’ for He knows our strength and courage have fled away. But it is that sweet word, “Be still, and know that I am God.’… God keeps His choicest cordials for our deepest faintings.”

And I’m ok with His “choicest cordials”… I’m ok with letting him be God and letting myself be, well, not.

 

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spring olympics


these two girls. wow. what can ya even say? They are getting OLD. And beautiful, and wonderful, and I completely adore them. They’ve gotten lost in the shuffle a few times in the last 7 months, and I’m so sorry for that. But yesterday got to be about them, and I loved that.

They had their “Spring Olympics” at school yesterday. Twice now they’ve gone to sit and watch Big Brother do his olympics, and it was a little weird for me to be going to watch them. I’m really not ready for them to be this big.

Anywho


… oh yea, and this little dude tagged along…

It’s ok if you want to eat him right up. We all do.

Meanwhile…

We love our teachers, and our class mates! What a great year of school my Ladies have had! 

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gardening.

Elijah has been planning his garden for a couple of weeks now. And here’s the thing about Elijah: he will not be dissuaded. He’s made diagrams and garden charts.

So, despite my very non-green thumb, I caved and let the boy plant his garden (afterall, he is so meticulous I’m pretty sure he’ll be able to keep everything alive and growing…) sidenote: We have one tomato plant already and many mornings we wake up to find it’s pot has been knocked over. Elijah’s solution is to hide in a tree all night with night-vision goggles and pelt the culprit with berries. He’d have done it too, if it wasn’t a school night. :)

Anywho, we went to the store and he painstakingly picked out all his vegetable seeds and plants, anguishing over the lack of eggplant and raspberries, and then came home to get to work. He divvied out jobs: he was to plant, Ava and Audrey were to locate worms, Jude could slide and/or practice napping, and I could cook the vegetables after they were grown (but not the broccoli, because everyone likes broccoli more when it’s raw).




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this and that

I’m going to be honest with you, guys.  April has been c-r-a-z-y. And May, I do believe, will be significantly crazier than April. So more and more of my blog posts might end up like this one- random, unorganized, and dappled with poor-quality cell-phone pictures. But it’s better than nothing… maybe?

Jude in a dress. Sorry Jude. We did take it off right after snapping this pic.

Jude with girls’ underwear on his head… And yes, Ava is most definitely the cause of both of the above photos.

Jude and a goat.

Jude with his i-can’t-keep-em-up swim trunks.

And now I’d like to take a moment and apologize to all my other children who aren’t in any of the above pictures. Apparently I take a disproportionate amount of camera-phone photos of Jude. I will work on that.

 

 


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Elijah’s “Best Day So Far”

Grace urged me to post sometimes, so here’s my two cents.

Sometimes Elijah reminds me of myself as a kid.  I was intense, forgetful, yet imaginative and passionate.  Other times, though, I realize how different he is.  Those who know me now will scoff, but as a younger (elementary-aged) kid, I was frequently a top baseball player on my team, and I loved church basketball.  I spent entire summers shooting hoops with my next-door neighbor.  Yet Elijah is no more interested in sports than I am in Pinterest.  He’s delightfully different.

At the end of his Spring Break last Friday, I had Good Friday off. So I asked what he wanted to do for a “boys’ trip” day.  He wanted to take his Tennessee Field Guide to Birds to Radnor Lake. 

Yes, bird watching.  And so we went. 

As we neared he asked questions about what we might see with increasing anticipation.  I told him what I’d read on Rador’s website: that there are owls that hunt during the day and visitors sometimes see them.  Having read a George Mueller biography recently, I was inspired to pray a very sincere and confident prayer that we would see such an owl up close and personal.

barred owlNot two minutes into our “hike” we heard a “who–hoo-ho-hooooo!”  Turning towards the sound, we spotted a giant bird gliding directly toward us.  He swooped up quickly and landed on the tree right in front of us–on a branch not 7′ away!  He stared at us inquisitively for several minutes, and we back.  Elijah’s face was priceless–Christmas morning pales in comparison.  We watched him for about 10 minutes as he swooped down into the creek bed to “fish” and back up to a close branch.  Elijah nervously giggled and intensely studied; he grabbed his book and compared owls.  Yes, it was a Barred Owl.

After this encounter, we saw no less than 30 box turtles on logs in the lake, a Great Blue Heron fishing adeptly (a female as Elijah quickly pointed out), a Pileated Woodpecker (the size of a crow with a bright red tuft on the top of his head), and a giant snapping turtle crossing the trail (Elijah stayed back a few paces, knowing what their jaws are capable of).

After such an experience, most kids would love a Happy Meal.  Elijah, knowing French Fries aren’t good for you and that fast-food burgers “have chemicals in them”, preferred his favorite meal: “fish sushi”.  After he devoured 2 1/2 entire rolls, we went for a spin at a go-cart track (probably the least exciting part of the day for him) and then back home. All the while, he kept saying things like “I’m SOOO glad we saw a barred owl. We saw a few rare things, but that was my favorite.” In true George Mueller style, I was moved to pray: “how kind of you, God, to answer such a prayer”.

Elijah came home to talk his sisters’ ears off about his experience. He’s been drawing owls ever since.  He told Grace it was his “best day so far”.

Me too, buddy. Me too.

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tubes and adenoidectomy

Yesterday Jude got tubes in his ears and his adenoids removed. Of course, Vanderbilt is always a wonderful place for surgeries, and they wheeled our happy little guy away in a little tykes car, had him breathe some strawberry-smelling aroma, and before we knew it, he was minus two very large adenoids and plus three senses (hearing, smelling, & tasting)!

He had a hard time waking up from the anesthesia and basically had to sleep it off for several hours, occasionally waking  into a dazed and confused, and not to pleasant, state. But eventually he began to come around. The nurses wouldn’t allow us to leave until he drank something, and that held us up longer than we would have liked. But eventually we were on our way home, and by evening he was running around in the back yard like nothing ever happened (he is on pain meds, which seem to be exceedingly effective)!

He’s had a great day today, eating non-stop, taking a great nap, blowing kisses to every stranger that looked at him. It seems as though this recovery is significantly less painful than the previous one.

It’s really too soon to know how impacting this surgery will be, but so far we are hopeful that both his eating and his speech will improve. Also, he was probably burning a lot of extra calories just by breathing with the enlarged adenoids, so the hope is that, with those guys gone, he will be able to gain a little weight.

We’ll see!

 

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watermelon…

…is one of elijah’s 2 favorite foods (the other one is, of course, sushi).

Thankfully it’s coming in season now so we can eat more of it for less moo-lah.

don’t wait for me to slice it, or anything, bud.

such a handsome lad. i hardly even notice that he’s scooping watermelon out of the rind with his bare hands.

even the NFE (non-fruit-eater) couldn’t resist! He ate three whole bites!

he’s so ding-dang cute.

 


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